Media - Lyrics


1. Jealousy
2. Media World
3. Blindness
4. Don't Drive Drunken
5. Memory
6. Ziellos
7. Beholder Of The Night
8. Mexico
9. Break
10. Like Me
11. My Will
12. Egocentric
13. Two Stories





Jealousy  
I can’t change it
So I just try to look away
Or ignore it
But it hurts me
I wish you knew it
But it would make things even worse
I imagine it
And it hurts me

You look in my eyes
Can’t you see me crying?
Why do you hide your face?
Why don’t you say good-bye?
Why?

I don’t believe
Anything about
About your stupid story
Tell me you’re wrong
Say it, please, say
Say you’re feeling sorry

Remember what you said to me
It’s not that far away

I’m on my way to clarity
Stagger between black and white
Can’t find the right direction
And always change my mind
Do I love you? Loathe you? Want you?
I shout at you

I don’t believe
Anything about
About your stupid story
Tell me you’re wrong
Say it, please, say
Say you’re feeling sorry
Give me attention
Give me affection, give us
Time to spend together
Break up with her
I insist you
Fake kisses won’t last forever
They won’t last forever

Between confusing feelings
Is there anything left
Anything left
Anything but jealousy?


Media World  
When the silence is broken
by their insistend voices
saying nothing at all
Illusions will be created
and subconciously shaded
taking up your free mind
So beware from these pictures
This world does not exist
Just on the screen it seems real
But everyone is addicted
Beautiful, cruel, affected
they are hiding that deal

I close my eyes
I switch it off
I start to think by myself

Are you satisfied?
Illusions can blind
Faking your mind
Your innocent mind
What do you find?
Staring too tight
Forsaking your mind
Your innocent mind

Information is filtered
Can you see through or feel that
there’s stuff they sorted out?
The key word goes control
Who steers the wheel of it all?
You’re not the one to decide
Biased news is their action
Our answer compassion
To donate satisfaction
This is how meanings move
The signific shifts without proof
I’m waiting for your reaction

I keep my mind
I keep my thoughts
I safe my personality



Blindness  
War
Everywhere is war
Nobody knows why
Casualties gone with the wind
War
For the sake of fighting
Or for the stupid media
Gain is less and less is gain

All the debris burning
Cities die
All the homeless people
Running crying asking why
Life passing by
Trying to hide
No way out
Out of their sight
Journey through life
No more sky

War
Can’t you see the dread
you’re glorifying
Killing called act of esteem
War
Instrument of power
Blood stained trial of your strength
A solution in your narrow thinking

Why
Life passing by
Trying to hide
No bloody way out



Don't Drive Drunken  
Remembering the night seems impossible to me
Can’t even tell when this shit it had begun
But I just can say how I felt next day
Back on the ground, wake up with the license away

The higher it starts, the deeper the end lies
And heroes of the night now are losers of day
Had it had to be or was it just in vain?
Alcohol, oh, can you just explain?!

Don’t you…
Don’t you do it!
Don’t you, don’t you drive drunken...
Get rid of this alcohol

Now taking a bus, slow and not real cheap
Enough time to think about the deeds I did
No more nights just drowning my sorrow
Even no more days with the car to borrow



Memory  
Fight against that central fear
Where gray memories disappear
Paint them red
Cut them deep
Don't forget
Rather bleed

Finally arriving on top of the highest
Noone, nothing counts enough to bring me down
Perfect isolation
More than ever free
Holding on to nothing
Noone holds me

Now
Leave me out
Everything, everywhere
Doubt
Show me how
Anyone, any care

Your bravery a beautiful illusion
I succeed pretending just as well
Surfaced satifaction
Fiction's never real
Fed up writing stories
I want to live

Need to feel home
And never alone
So close to you

Open skies
Flying high
Far away

Let me go now, please, leave me out
Freedom, that's what it's all about
Living dreams, not dreaming of life

Doubts are darkening like clouds
Rain will fall if you don't show me how
To find that perfect compromise

Open skies that need to feel home
Flying high and never alone
Far away but still close to you



Ziellos
dunkelheit umgibt die schlaflose seele
im ewigen kampf verzweifelt sie hoffnungsvoll
warme schatten malen phantastische bilder
doch wagen nicht zu fragen was das alles soll

nicht am ziel und doch am ende
genug blut, das ich vergoss
das zauberwort, das ich nie kannte
fehlt mir immer noch
ein ton liest gedanken
er ändert sich nicht
die hoffnung baut schlösser
jedes davon zerbricht

der wille neu zu suchen scheitert widersprüchlich
unbeweglich scheint der punkt, um den alles kreist
steile treppen führen aus der verzweiflung
doch sie zu erreichen, bin ich zu schwach

ziellos
hoffnung heißt glück
niemand liebt es so wie ich
ziellos
doch ohne weg zurück
niemand hasst es so wie ich

greifen nach vernunft, um den sturm zu legen
sehnsucht töten, nur um frei zu sein?

was ist ziel?
wann ist das ende?
wieviel blut?
warum ich?
welche worte öffnen tore?
wieso kenne ich sie nicht?
was ist schicksal?
wo bleibt wärme?
wie stirbt hoffnung?
wer schenkt glück?
warum blicke ohne tränen?
wo liegt der weg zurück?

ziellos
hoffnung heißt glück
niemand liebt es so wie ich
ziellos
doch ohne weg zurück
niemand hasst es so wie ich
ziellos
die vergangenheit spricht
ich kenn sie und sie kennt mich
ziellos
illusion zerbricht
und ich weiß ich will es

ziellos
die hoffnung erstickt
freudentränen gibt es nicht
ziellos
es endet ohne mich
und die leere trage ich
und es scheint ich leide nicht


Beholder Of The Night
Lightening up the darkness
Staring at the world
Nothing escapes his notice
While the sun is sleeping
Silently he watches you
Knows your feelings, knows your truth
Follows you to every secret place
That you can imagine

Beholder of the night...

Accompanying every soul
He’s the connection
And may show the face of anyone
That you are missing
Inspite of differences
Distance, ignorance
His common illumination
Is uniting all of us

Beholder of the night...

His mystery and perfect grace
Eternal light in endless space
Look to his sky
See the beholder of the night

When the coldness of his shimmer
May hurt your lonely eyes
Think of all the glances
That meet above and seem to fly

With his peaceful sight
He leads you out of your fight
Though you may deny it
He is always right
Beholder of the night...

His beauty shines away your fears
His comfort dries away your tears
No need to cry
With the beholder of the night

Silently he watches you
Knows your feelings, knows your truth
Emotions fly
In his fabulous cold light

His mystery and perfect grace
Eternal light in endless space
Look to his sky
See the beholder of the night
No need to cry
With the beholder of the night


Mexico
I don’t want to hear your steps behind me
I don’t want to feel observed
I don’t want you
To look at me
I don’t want to see your face
I didn’t ask for your attention
I didn’t ask for company
I don’t want to
Hear your questions
That I don’t want to answer to

Now listen, my dear
Eruption is near
Don’t feel save
You should have fear
Annoyance makes me going on
A rampage on your mental home
Head without brain
Going insane
What’s your favourite
Hurting pain?
Importunity should be
Punished different way

There’s no interest in your stories
I don’t care about your name
I don’t want to
Get to know you
Or your boat, your friend, your game
You keep walking, talking, staring
Psychopathic atmosphere
You pretend to be a friend
But in the end you’ll understand
That I’m a girl who’s seeing clear

Are you blind or are you stupid?
Are you deaf or out of mind?
Don’t you that
You’re nerve-racking?
What’s the problem of your kind?
You seem to hide your real intention while you irritate confusing
And your confused irritating calls you mental terrorist
Without you
And your perverse plans
My world would be a better place


Break
I’m feeling tired
Don’t know how to keep this way
Weakness wins in times of doubting
Like today
Tears without sadness
I search for the cause inside of me
A breathless voice and worn-out soul are all I see
They can’t stand the pressure
I created creatively
Wanting everything
Now cracking up without any aim

Break
Breaking out
Giving up
Responsibility
Lean back
Sound of the waves
Feeling bored
After one day
Unfortunately

I’m longing for one break
Breaking out of time and space
Giving up responsibility
Leaning back and listening
To the sound of the waves
But I’m feeling bored after one day
Unfortunately

Dates and duties
Accumulate and still increase
Valuable time elapsing on the way
Plenty of intentions
Overturn while realising
And I can’t set my own priorities
I’m unable to
Valid doubts about abilities
What’s enough?
Uncertainty constantly
I need my burden



Like Me
When a chance proves to be a defeat
and you fail again
When the self-doubts cut too deep
and just your useless soul remains
When there’s many different ways
and you decide for dead-end street
When everyone trusts in your strength
and it’s you who’s weak

You will scream
‘cause you feel
like me

Where’s my dream?
I can’t breathe anymore
My voice’s giving in
crying out my burning core

When you’re working hard to win
but success does not occur
When your heart bleeds more and more
but you can’t get in
When you’re used to reach your aims
but suddenly it seems too tough
When you don’t give up to try
but it’s not enough

Where's my dream?
I can't breathe anymore
You will scream
'cause you feel
like me



My Will
Questioning about my will
What do I want
to achieve, to do and where to be?
What's important to me?
Searching, waiting for an answer
Am I ready to find
or maybe just blind?

Time runs by
All my reflections fly
Deciding this life while
I have no clue about my will
I don't know
what will be needed for
making me happy
Satisfied won't be enough

Restless I am looking for
any leader, any sign to guide me
in choosing the way to my luck
But I resist all obligations
Spontaneous or planned
Those ways work against

I panic 'cause future's too close
That seriousness I'm suppressing
No vision, just dreams
Utopian scenes

Time runs by
Reflections fly
while I decide this life
I don't know
what will be needed for
making me happy

When all the days run by
and all of my reflections fly
I decide this life in time
without a clue, without a lie
I can't deny that I don't know
what really will be needed for
happiness inside my soul
without regrets, without sorrow

Time runs by
Reflections fly
while I
decide
this life
I don't want to lie
lie to me
Will I be
happy?
sorry?
I have to decide




Egocentric
My words have to lead the conversation
I decide the place to go tonight
My incredibly unusual sensation
I am sure about what's wrong or right

This life is the hardest
This pain is so cruel
This voice screams the loudest
Myself... so extreme

My plans don't accept another direction
I don't care about what you deserve
My love can give more than common affection
I am centre of the universe

Egocentric fantasies
One more scene in my selfish tragedy
This is me
Egocentric fantasies

You can show me everything I want to see
But this is not reality
Now arriving at the age of descretion
I am sure about what's wrong with me

This life ain't the hardest
This pain ain't so cruel
This voice ain't the loudest
Myself ain't extreme



Two Stories
Shadow and light appear
Black boots hit the ground for vibration
Your perfect sin is here
This facade should be more than temptation

Sun
Violett sky
Wind blows high
I stumble
I stagger in weaker state
Far
Open wide
Warm delight
No space to share up here
Fear of height

A breath is loud enough
Can't imagine one conversation
Smoke and sweat and touch
Lose your mind in passionate tension

Mad images up in my mind
They're turning 'round
They're flying high
Two stories in two worlds apart
No compromise
Illusioned heart